Not the Same [Closed]

[Aedemi]

mood : mehh

"The apartment is...not too bad. I can deal with it!"

I was a little disappointed, though, but I didn't want to tell that to the man who showed me my new apartment. I thanked the man without waiting a second longer and he left me to unpack. That happened my first week here.�

That was months ago, probably even a year -- who knows. I can't remember exactly. I had barely left my "family" then. Hmph. Some family. I'm glad I left. Good riddance, I said to myself when I walked out the door that night. Good riddance, and I hope to never see any of you again. Not that I care. Well, maybe just a little. I was hurt. But, still, I won't back down on my decision. I left, and I have no regrets.

Well, anyways, back to more important matters.�

The apartment -- more like a room, sheesh -- was plain, but nice, I guess. Nothing outstanding. Eh, who am I kidding? I'm bummed. Completely bummed. I hate this place. So many rules! I had no idea they'd be worse than Raylia! Man, I am so stupid. I've heard nothing about my mother or my brother either. And, and...I have to live in this stupid little room. There's no view here. Nothing.�

Well, that's all I have to complain about. In a sense, I have found a new freedom here. I can finally practice ninjutsu as I please. No need to hide or anything. Now, that's awesome.

Oh well. Let's see what this place has in store for me today. Aedemi out!

[exit]

[Aedemi]

[enter]

mood : lazy

"Okay, okay. Time to leave this hole."

It took her a while to get out of bed, but upon convincing herself that a better way of using her day off was to get out and breathe some fresh air, she went to the bathroom to begin her daily routine. She was slacking off too much lately. With the lights off, she began to wash her face. However, even Aedemi set limits on how lazy she's allowed to get.

It was the weekend. Aedemi knew she was too lax on her training (she was one of those who would do nothing unless told to do something) so she made a promise to herself that the weekend was the only time she could do as she wished. Everything else would be dedicated to training. With a sigh, she put on her sleeveless turtleneck shirt, some pants, and her boots. It was a bit cool outside, so she brought a shawl with her, which covered her backpack. The bag didn't carry much, just some sheet music and her lunch -- two chocolate bars included. She told herself she would cut some of that candy out of her diet, but that would take too much effort. She would have to make it up by warming up in the forest later today.

She brought her mateki flute along with her bag full of her ninja gear. She figured she should at least try to warm up her skills somehow, even on her day off. What else could she have done besides sleep, anyway?

She left the apartment and quickly shielded her eyes. Must it be so bright outside? she complained to herself as she rubbed her face with her hands. Stupid.

Her golden eyes gradually adjusted to the light, but in the meantime, some kids that passed her by would stick their tongue out at her since her face appeared to express disdain. It most certainly did not help with her mood. No matter. Aedemi carried on, flute on hand, and walked further away from them, away from people. It was good to be alone every once in a while.

But not all the time.

Pangs of loneliness would strike her occasionally, but she tried to brush it off. Then she would get somewhat homesick. That was the worst part. She would be on the verge of giving in, of giving up all her effort, her freedom, for the sake of having the illusion of a home again, but no. She still had dignity. No way she would allow it again.

Then what else was she to do? She didn't want to be friends with a ninja. It was different before because she was barely starting out...but now she was inexperienced despite a year since earning that forehead protector. But she needed to feel a sense of comradeship with fellow mist shinobi. And friends? She didn't have any.

She silently cursed herself and her bad decisions and walked alongside a river. Its cool breath lingered over it in the form of a faint fog. She looked at it for a while, wondering if it was all worth it, after all. Of course it is! What the hell are you talking about?

She lifted the flute to her lips and played the bird's song.

[exit]