Hamura Out
Jan 8, 2019 20:31:14 GMT -7
Post by Hamura on Jan 8, 2019 20:31:14 GMT -7
So to paint the one who bothers to read this a picture, i've been considering either leaving or taking some time off for quite a while now. Ever since I got sick and had to leave for two months, the urge to actually write had been receding as it felt like the wise choice to focus on getting better before i'd go about doing stuff again.
When I got back however, it turned out that most of everything that I had been working on had effectively shut down, that the people I had actively been talking to and had plans to RP with had just up and left and that aside from training and rounding up TP because of it was just about the only thing i've ever really been working on.
Because I joined Sand at the time with a bunch of other people, and we had created a pretty active community, I had hoped that that would still be standing by the time I got back, because two months really isn't all that long. So you can imagine that it was rather disheartening when literally everyone disappeared aside from Flower, Snow and Star. But with Star not really doing much anymore due to some other RP site and work, Snow having trouble pushing anything through for Suna in terms of Events, me being barred from events because Snow and Shango have beef and Flower being up to stuff that doesn't really include Sand people - good aligned characters, that pretty much meant that there wasn't much left for me there.
So I went and started RPing with other people outside of Sand, and while i've enjoyed RPing with Loki, Emi and Shin, things either taking a backseat, being slowed down or just not really progressing (in part because I just can't seem to bring up a post I actually like) haven't done much to improve my mood. While i've been trying to take it away from the site by not snapping at people, I feel that it has reached the point where I just don't feel it anymore.
I really enjoy writing with Hamura, but because I feel like everything I do isn't working up to anything in the future and barely does anything to develop my character aside from just rounding up more TP, it's all just become some pointless chore where I need to write a post just so other people won't have to wait to get their shit just because i'm being lazy about it. But yeah, with all of Ham's personal plot stuff either being on hold or being dropped during the period in which I was sick, I just don't feel like I have a purpose being here anymore.
So whether this will be a flat-out leaving thread or a note for people so as to let them know i'll not be around as often isn't something i'm certain of, though I guess time will tell.
When I got back however, it turned out that most of everything that I had been working on had effectively shut down, that the people I had actively been talking to and had plans to RP with had just up and left and that aside from training and rounding up TP because of it was just about the only thing i've ever really been working on.
Because I joined Sand at the time with a bunch of other people, and we had created a pretty active community, I had hoped that that would still be standing by the time I got back, because two months really isn't all that long. So you can imagine that it was rather disheartening when literally everyone disappeared aside from Flower, Snow and Star. But with Star not really doing much anymore due to some other RP site and work, Snow having trouble pushing anything through for Suna in terms of Events, me being barred from events because Snow and Shango have beef and Flower being up to stuff that doesn't really include Sand people - good aligned characters, that pretty much meant that there wasn't much left for me there.
So I went and started RPing with other people outside of Sand, and while i've enjoyed RPing with Loki, Emi and Shin, things either taking a backseat, being slowed down or just not really progressing (in part because I just can't seem to bring up a post I actually like) haven't done much to improve my mood. While i've been trying to take it away from the site by not snapping at people, I feel that it has reached the point where I just don't feel it anymore.
I really enjoy writing with Hamura, but because I feel like everything I do isn't working up to anything in the future and barely does anything to develop my character aside from just rounding up more TP, it's all just become some pointless chore where I need to write a post just so other people won't have to wait to get their shit just because i'm being lazy about it. But yeah, with all of Ham's personal plot stuff either being on hold or being dropped during the period in which I was sick, I just don't feel like I have a purpose being here anymore.
So whether this will be a flat-out leaving thread or a note for people so as to let them know i'll not be around as often isn't something i'm certain of, though I guess time will tell.