Goodbye, Ryan...

[occlumancy]

Ryan, you dearly will be missed. I have a bit more information on this event that I found out from facebook and told Abumi last week.

Date of Death: December 22nd 2009 18:00

I shall remember to post all of the thoughts on him on his facebook page for his death. It is so thoughtful to see so many people talking about what a great person he was and it may just make his family feel a bit better. R.I.P., Ryan.

[Nyu]

I measure every grief...


I measure every grief I meet
With analytic eyes;
I wonder if it weighs like mine,
Or has an easier size.

I wonder if they bore it long,
Or did it just begin?
I could not tell the date of mine,
It feels so old a pain.

I wonder if it hurts to live,
And if they have to try,
And whether, could they choose between,
They would not rather die.

I wonder if when years have piled--
Some thousands--on the cause
Of early hurt, if such a lapse
Could give them any pause;

Or would they go on aching still
Through centuries above,
Enlightened to a larger pain
By contrast with the love.

The grieved are many, I am told;
The reason deeper lies,--
Death is but one and comes but once
And only nails the eyes.

There's grief of want, and grief of cold,--
A sort they call 'despair,'
There's banishment from native eyes,
In sight of native air.

And though I may not guess the kind
Correctly yet to me
A piercing comfort it affords
In passing Calvary,

To note the fashions of the cross
Of those that stand alone
Still fascinated to presume
That some are like my own.


- Emily Dickinson


I never knew you. I never RPd with you, but for your lose the world is darkened. I have lost many friends at a young age. Never gets easier to know that someone at such a young age died. Even if I didn't know you, I am sadden by your loss.

RIP Tobi/Ryan

[massiah]

I hope all of what's good goes to his spirit and close ones.

I'll be praying.

[unkut]

This post actually touched me. I didn't even knew him, but I guess he was a really good person...

Rest In Piece

[havefaith]

It is beyond words to express yourself in times like these, I never had the pleasure of meeting ryan but I am sure he was a great guy. What you guys are doing, in honor of his name, is just amazing. I am sure, where ever he is, he is smiling at the people he left behind.

I hold a great deal of respect for this community just because of this.

[gaaraofthesand]

I raise my glass.

I wouldn't joke around in this thread, and this post isn't for such things. Furthermore, I stumbled across a song that was from the comedy show The Office and I found that it fit this thread.

A tribute to you,

Goodbye Tobi.

respect,
-Fish

[Kamiko "Tsukihime" Akumu]

...The shock has me but not seeing his presence in the C-box is proof enough. Rest in peace Ryan, seeing you in that c-box always put a smile on my face, wish we got to rp sometime. See you on the other side.

[Mr. Chow]

I seem to wonder more and more how fate twists into the bigger picture of life, life lost or memories retained forever to the point of hoping to meet another day in a better place.
Your passing shall bring to all those touched by it, not mourning but a since of ungency to the rest of us left undead and a pillar of thoughts instilled into us by your legacy. Sweet dreams as your eternal slumber has truly awakened us to the reality that life is not a given and we truly are only mortal. - Nicholas J. Cantrell

Rest In Peace as we all share the burdon of any sorrows you may have left behind.

[An'ei Sekitan]

So, finally got Ryan, huh? He was one of my better internet friends too, cool guy, willing to listen to me no matter what. You don't find many friends like that these days. It does actually make me sad that he's gone, I'm not the stone beast you all would have me believe. No fancy poems, no songs. I'm gonna miss him though. I'm not gonna be angry if you ban my friend's account, since she let me use it to post here the second I learned the news. You wanna ban me in light of me speaking on a friend in this type of situation. Do it. Don't erase my message. This was for Ryan, don't be so petty.

Ryan was the one of five people close to me from the net, you don't get much better stock than him.

I've said my peace. Goodbye once again.
~ Coal. Chris.

[Raikou!]

It's a shame. Rest in peace.

-Raikou.

[Deleted]

At times like these that I see that this place is not just like a site but much much more. Rest in peace brother

[Deleted]

You'll be missed bro. You were one of the few who didn't annoy or irritate me in some way. You were a good person. Rest in peace my friend.

[merilla]

Hi Everyone. I am Ryan's mum, Sally. I was very touched to see all the wonderful things written about him by all of you. Yes, he was wonderful and special and very funny. Obviously information has been a bit scant so here goes:
March 13th 2009 Ryan was diagnosed with ALL (Leukaemia) and admitted to University College Hospital London, Teenage Cancer Trust ward. Chemotherapy began immdiately and was to be a 3 year treatment plan. Ryan faced this with his usual cheerfulness and bravery and it helped him to know that I had myself survived a throat cancer a few years back. The usual success rate with this kind of leukaemia in young adults is 88% total recovery. However, Ryan showed some leukaemic cells in his spinal fluid during a rountine lumbar puncture in July and therefore proceeded to bone marrow transplant as the only option. His sister, Leanne was found to a perfect match and the transplant went ahead in October. The chemotherapy prior to transplant was much stronger than Ryan had had before and together with the total body radiation he was pretty unwell for a while. After transplant Ryan and I were isolated in the hospital but sadly from somewhere he got a cough/cold which developed into a chest infection which became ARDS (look it up on the internet) which was what killed him. He was sedated and unconcious on a ventilator when it was decided to turn it off because his lungs were no longer working and he was not getting enough oxygen to his brain. He died in my arms at 6.00pm London time on 22nd December. His funeral was on 7th January and was Naruto themed. Most of his friends wore Naruto costumes and everybody wore bright colours. Ryan was actually 15 when he died. He was my son and my best friend and me and his sister, Leanne and foster brother Dean are in bits without him. Pictures of the funeral can be found on my facebook page. Sally Greenan-Howard is my name. Thanks so much

[Nyu]

He is a piece now dear lady. Your children aren't without him. He is with them and you everyday never leaving your side. May God Bless your house hold and help you to live the lives that your son would have wanted you to live.

[Taro. (FINISH HIM)]

Jun 1, 2010 12:04:19 GMT -7 @merilla said:

He was my son and my best friend and me and his sister, Leanne and foster brother Dean are in bits without him.

My name is Dean...

I didn't really interact with Tobi too much but he was a cool person from what I saw and even though I didn't know him too well, I feel as though he was my best friend. It hurts to have someone you know pass away, and I will miss him.

[I C H I R O™]

He really was a cool guy and will be missed. Never have I missed someone I haven't really known so much - I hope all is fine and I will be checking things out on facebook. I'm sorry for your loss, but he everyone else's alike. =[

[Deleted]

Ryan.

I never knew you, not even in the Cbox or Facebook or anything, but from what I have read in this thread he was a great guy. It is a tragedy that someone who had such a good nature and was so brave and kind had to be lifted from this life.

A piece of this world dies with you, Ryan.

But I won't say goodbye. I'll stick to what I believe in, and hope it is true. All I'll say is this, Ryan.

See you later.

[Komusō]

Sad to hear that Ryan's mother has past away.
I interacted with him in the past, Ryan always spoke highly of NFRP.

[Deleted]

Yeah, I think she died last month or late in December. I would have to relook. Sally was really cool and she was very open minded. She also supported a lot on Ryan anime and cosplay. At his funeral, they had a naruto cosplay for him.

[👺 Usiel]

I am making a Sticky out of this so I never forget.