So long
Nov 14, 2008 14:41:01 GMT -7
Post by joshcrisp on Nov 14, 2008 14:41:01 GMT -7
Well, it's been quite a week for me.
A couple of things in real life have made me question the value of what I'm doing here. It has no long term benefits, will not be around four years from now, and frankly, has become argumentative and repetative.
Many members are unpleasant, as are some staff. That's part of what being staff is all about, but it becomes impossible to convince yourself that there's a point to it. None of this is real. None of it. These friendships, these bonds, these ties of loyalty, of honor, of hatred. People getting worked up and angry over a make-pretend game online. It's a string of ones and zeros, and honestly, there are better things to get pissed about.
I have had a great time here, and there are those of you I will genuinely miss. There are also those of you who I will not, so, swings-and-roundabouts.
I took a good long look at my life and thought: "I'm eighteen. What am I doing deluding myself into thinking that any of this is important? Why am I wasting my time bothering to explain to 12 year olds in America how to build their character's according to fictional rules."
All good things must come to an end, and I think this has. I read Panda's post earlier today and thought to myself "Holy hell, that's me in 2 months time." My activity is dwindling, and the site is losing any sense of fun. Nobody does any actual roleplay, all people want to do is train, fight and argue.
The way people fight is insane as well. Assuming things into existence, pointing out tiny errors in other people's posts, and abusing them. Instead of acting with a modicum of charity and goodwill, in the interests of having a fun, fair fight, and reading people's posts in the way they were intended, it becomes a competition over who can be the most pedantic and obnoxious. An online 'who has the biggest dick competition' when all your dicks are imaginary....
Ask yourself what is the point? Do you want to be doing the same job all your life? Does real life have the same impact as it did since you started on the site? How much of a bearing does the site have on your life? I don't want to wake up one day, and find myself being 25 and still going on RP sites with angsty teenagers who can't find a medium for release other than the internet because they are too socially inept or physically hideous.
I just can't live in a fantasy world any more. I'm out.
A couple of things in real life have made me question the value of what I'm doing here. It has no long term benefits, will not be around four years from now, and frankly, has become argumentative and repetative.
Many members are unpleasant, as are some staff. That's part of what being staff is all about, but it becomes impossible to convince yourself that there's a point to it. None of this is real. None of it. These friendships, these bonds, these ties of loyalty, of honor, of hatred. People getting worked up and angry over a make-pretend game online. It's a string of ones and zeros, and honestly, there are better things to get pissed about.
I have had a great time here, and there are those of you I will genuinely miss. There are also those of you who I will not, so, swings-and-roundabouts.
I took a good long look at my life and thought: "I'm eighteen. What am I doing deluding myself into thinking that any of this is important? Why am I wasting my time bothering to explain to 12 year olds in America how to build their character's according to fictional rules."
All good things must come to an end, and I think this has. I read Panda's post earlier today and thought to myself "Holy hell, that's me in 2 months time." My activity is dwindling, and the site is losing any sense of fun. Nobody does any actual roleplay, all people want to do is train, fight and argue.
The way people fight is insane as well. Assuming things into existence, pointing out tiny errors in other people's posts, and abusing them. Instead of acting with a modicum of charity and goodwill, in the interests of having a fun, fair fight, and reading people's posts in the way they were intended, it becomes a competition over who can be the most pedantic and obnoxious. An online 'who has the biggest dick competition' when all your dicks are imaginary....
Ask yourself what is the point? Do you want to be doing the same job all your life? Does real life have the same impact as it did since you started on the site? How much of a bearing does the site have on your life? I don't want to wake up one day, and find myself being 25 and still going on RP sites with angsty teenagers who can't find a medium for release other than the internet because they are too socially inept or physically hideous.
I just can't live in a fantasy world any more. I'm out.